3:57 p.m. - 2005-04-30
One of the entries i stumbled across was when I was in LA and I thought I saw Brian, which sparked the whole "gotta find him again thing".(7/24/02) To think it was so long ago... it's just insane. I know my sister is really worried about this situation.. as demostrated by her numerous comments on it.. and I appreciate it, and I love her for it.. but I think she more than anyone knows what its like to do what I am doing.. and yes, its usually normally a bad thing.. but this is something I HAVE to do.. and I know I don't *have* to.. but I do.. for my own peace of mind...
I'm not going into this situation blindly people.. I know what the deal is.. and honestly, I'm just curious to see how it goes. I know how it'll end.. and that's ok.. I've always known that he and I wouldn't be together in the end... but the ride along the way? It's been more than interesting.
The thing about him.. as much as he's an ass... he really is one of the most amazing people I've ever met. I always have fun whenever we're together and he and I just have this "thing" between us that just can't be explained. I think that it can't be explained is what drives him crazy. As creative as he is, he's a logical motherfucker and the fact that this 'relationship' we share has never made sense or followed any sort of rules, just screws him up.
I dunno. I just know that this will be interesting.. which is fine with me.. because who wants to live a boring life? Who wants a life without strong emotions?
~ Anyways.. going back to my original thought... the five years.. holy hell... if you're bored, the archive page is fixed... go back and read some of the entries.. I promise they'll make you laugh.