10:57 p.m. - 2005-01-02
Well.. 2004 was quite an interesting year.
I started teaching again.. and teaching the one grade that I swore I never would.. third. Funny thing is, I love it more than I ever thought I could. I adore the school I am at, and have made some awesome friends at work. The kids I have in my class are truly some of the coolest kids I've ever met, and I have been blessed with having a good class size (i have less than i did when i taught k) and my kids are really fucking good. I look at some of the other 3rd grade classes and I sigh with relief each day that I have the kids that I do.
Relationship wise, this year has been very interesting... lots of crushes, some random hookups and that's been about it. Meeting J was unexpected and allthough I do really like the kid, we both know that its nothing anything near serious nor do either of us really have any emotions invested. Luckily for me he's a really good kisser and he can dance and sing. I figure we'll just end up at friends, and honestly, that's more than fine with me... but for now its fun to have a boytoy.
Still living with the folks, have changed my mind about 8578 times trying to figure out where I want to move to.. just focusing now on paying off the credit card I lived off of when I didn't work for a year and a half. I kinda have someplace in mind next year but dont want to jinx it this early by saying anything yet.
Myself - I've learned a hell of a lot about myself this past year. I learned that I'm a better teacher than I ever thought I was, that it wasn't me, it was the situation I was in before that made me so anti-teaching.
Past- The past is finally that.. the past. If you hadn't figured out yet that I tend to hold onto shit... well.. I do. Brian and I stopped talking in Feb. and for a long time I mourned the loss of him... now, I realise that its for the best. Sure it sucks losing the friendship, but overall, it's better because I would have never gotten from him what I wanted. I wish him nothing but happiness though.. I hope he's doing well and I know he'll be an amazing doctor.
Family and Friends- The first half of the year allowed me to really get closer to a lot of my friends.. and I love them more than anything.
Overall 2004 was a really good year. The first half was really rocky with the no job thing, but once I got that shit in order, things all just seemed to fall in place. I have such high hopes for 2005. I have a really good feeling that things will go well this year.