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9:58 p.m. - 2007-01-30 For the first time ever, i'm really trying to be healthier. I'm eating better, I'm watching what I eat.. I'm cutting down on what I eat.. and I can see some results.. but the problem is, i have no patience. When it comes to kids, I have a LOT of patience.. they are young, they don't know better... When it comes to anyone/anything else.. I'm like the worst cases of ADD you've ever seen. I hate the fact that I've become this unhealthy. I hate the fact that I now have to bust my ass to get healthy again... because I have no patience. I don't have 5-10 vanity pounds to lose people. I have much much more. That takes time.. time which for me drags on like fucking mud. I'm trying to stay motivated. I have a time line I'm working on.. I have goals.. but I just fear that if I fail this time I'll give up for good. YET... at anything else that I've really set my mind to... I've always done it... so I know myself well enough to know that I *can* do it. I think it will be a lot easier once the gym opens and I actually can go work out and not have to do it at home, where I am distracted by 290789 things... like this computer or my comfy bed to lay in and read. Anyways.. http://www.myspace.com/areistia xoxo
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