9:21 a.m. - 2005-07-13
I don't really give a shit about what my sisters think. Yes, I know that they are being protective because they love me.. but at the same time I think its hilarious that they seem to forget that I am a 27 year old woman and not some silly child.
It just stuck me funny that my sisters are calling me a hooker and my best friend is happy for me... even my mom said that it was eventual that I would meet someone that I was very compatible with.
What it boils down to is this.
I've been "the friend" for forever. I've met a boy that I don't want to be 'just friends' with.. and he doesn't want to be 'just friends' with me either.
I don't understand why its so hard for ppl to like accept the fact that I'm not conventional. I'm not good at trying to pick up boys at bars. When I do, they become one of my best friends (Adam) or they are stupid or just way too young.
He's the first guy I've met that is truly honest about his feelings and his thoughts. He holds so little back. and its something that I not only appreciate, but craved as well. I'm not as light hearted and happy go lucky as I let on all the time... I need someone who can understand that.
Do I know what will happen? Of course not. We both have said that this was totally unexpected... hell, I told Jamey on the way to meet him that it wasn't a big deal.. that it was going to be a friends thing... and here I am, 3 days later, and he just left.
I'm not putting him up on any sort of pedestal... all I'm saying is that I like him. Pure and simple. He's not "my type", he's a total neatfreak, he's totally a computer nerd.. but I like him... and he likes me.
If you can't understand that. If you can't understand that I'm happy and that all I wanted was for the people I love to have been happy for me.. then I'm sorry.
I'm happy about it.. why can't you be?